I think I recently rather accidentally discovered something about myself that explains a large part of my personality. It was during a personal statements workshop. More for looking to make my paragraph interesting rather than for actual truth, I mentioned that I had a natural (as in in-born) drive or cause to be an alpha male. As primative and animalistic as it may seem, I realised that such a strong sense to be this ... "most prominent" male would account for much of my strange behaviour at times.

For example, I never feel competitive or threatened by girls, but easily feel threatened and am easily jealous of other guys. I get this notion to want to be more popular, to stand out more, to do better, to look better ... the list goes on, and only applies to guys. I also get easily possessive.

Naturally I have yet to attain this alpha male level and of course I don't intend to challenge every male out there for dominance. Needless to say now being more aware of my primitive drive I will try to watch my behaviour more, and remind myself that humans are "evolved" creatures.

On a side (and positive in my opinion) note, for terms itself B for GP, A for Chem, B for Math, B for Econs, with Bio (hopefully an A) coming next week.