Recently certain events have gotten me rather well... annoyed. But they have also got me into more reflection, which is always good. Firstly, I would just like to thank people who pray for me for whatever reason, good or bad. But I probably think It's bad because normally you don't pray for someone when things are good. So I'm going to say this once and only this once. I feel there is very little point in praying for someone if you're hoping to change them or something without talking to them directly. It's like me praying that person A will stop smoking and taking drugs without myself taking the effort to tell him and advise him to stop smoking and such.

Secondly, I ask that when you speculate something about me, feel free to check with me, to talk to me about it. But please for goodness sake do not make me a subject of idiotic gossip. Why is this so? Well I am sick and absolutely tired of having to try to please people. I would like to live the way I want to live, in accordance to what I believe is God's will, and in doing so it would be awesome to not have people constantly finding fault with me and finding something that I am doing wrong and stuff. Please, nobody is perfect, and if you feel I am doing something that is not right in your eyes come directly to me and bring it up in a proper manner. I assure you I will happily take constructive criticism, but if you treat me weird for some reason and you don't bring it up all I can say is you deserve to be thrown to a pool of hungry alligators.

Thirdly, would you please let me start afresh. I'd like to believe I am different every year, that as I grow older I learn from my mistakes and do my best to change for the better. It does not help to keep harping on the same old things that I may have done wrong in the past. Learn to see me in a new light and accept me for who I am. Is that so hard?

To summarise all I'm asking for is a bit of respect. Exercise discretion when spreading things about others, respect the privacy of others. All this I feel I have not really been getting from certain people. And as I'm sure many of you know I have two very big pet peeves. Number 1 is having my plans disrupted without sufficient notice. Like last minute I cannot make its or school meetings when I have plans and such. Number 2 is being accused of things without being given a fair chance to defend myself, to give my stand. These are the two things that will get me rather upset. Which brings me onto my next point.

I have always been rather hot tempered and not very good at exercising self-control, to a certain extent due to my stand that everyone should treat others as they would others treat them. I realise now that I cannot expect everyone to live by this. I apologise to my classmates especially for often going somewhat "emo" on you guys and this year I will definitely try to handle my displeasure in a better, more proper way and also be more light hearted.

So once again I thank thee for trying to make my path straight, but I ask that you always bring it up with me and not spread it around.